my struggle

understand my struggle

only then can u see my pain

understand my heartache

you then better understand me

understand my loss

then know why i try so hard to gain

because when u trully understand my pain
you truelly no me and in understanding that maybe it will help you see all the things you did'nt know

SKIN

MY SKIN IS EBONY
GIVEN TO ME BY GOD ABOVE

MY SKIN IS DARK
AND DEEP AND RICH

MY SKIN IS HISTORY
A STORY UNTOLD

MY SKIN IS BEAUTY
AND WORDS THAT ARE BOLD

MY SKIN IS A STORY
THAT ONE MUST HEED

MY SKIN IS A GIFT
THAT I GLADLY RECIEVE


MY SKIN IS A GREATNESS
THIS I TRULY BELIEVE

I AM PROUD TO BE IN THIS SKIN
IT TOOK SOME TIME FOR ME TO REALLY UNDERSTAND AND COME TO LOVE WHAT BEING AFRICAN AMERICAN WAS. I ALWYS WOULD WISH FOR SOMETHING ELSE BUT NOW I LOVE AND ADORE THIS AND WISH TO BE NOTHING BUT MYSELF

THOUGHTS I SHOULDNT

I THINK THOUGHTS I SHOULD NT BE THINKING ABOUT YOU
LIKE THE WAY IT FEELS TO OWN YOUR AFFECTION
THE WAY I FEEL WHEN WE USED TO TOUCH
THE FIRE THAT EXPLODED IN MY VEINS
AT THE THOUGHT OF OUR LOVE

I THINK THOUGHTS I SHOULD NT EVERY TIME THAT YOUR AROUND
I SEE YOU AND MY KNEES GO WEAK AND IN YOUR PRESENCE
I CANNOT HELP BUT SMILE

I THINK THOUGHTS I SHOULD NT FOR I SHOULD HATE YOU
YET I CAN NEVER REMEMBER LOVING ANYBODY MORE
TO KNOW YOU IS TO START A PUZZLE
THAT WILL NEVER STOP
TO HATE YOU IS WASTE FOR YOU DON'T CARE AT ALL

I THINK THOUGHTS I SHOULDN'T BUT I CANT HELP BUT THINK OF YOU

LIVING FOR THE MOMENT

I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT FOR I KNOW THAT I WILL DIE THAT MUCH IS PROMISED TO ME JUSS AS SURE AS I NO FOR THIS MOMENT I AM ALIVE.
I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT AND I LET THEM TAKE MY BREATH AWAY
FOR AS SURE AS I BREATHE I WILL LOSE THAT BREATH ONE DAY.
I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT AND THEN I STOP TO PRAY THAT EVERY MOMENT WILL BE WORTH THE TIME I SPENT ON THEM SOMEDAY
I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT NEVER LOSING FAITH I AM SURE THAT AT THE WORSE TIMES IT WILL GET BETTER ONE DAY
I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT NEVER DWELLING ON LOST LOVE
FOR IT IS NOT I THAT LOST THE LOVE
BUT THE LOVE THAT HAS LOST ME
I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT NEVER FEARING DEATH FOR DEATH MARKS THE END OF A LONG HARD DAY AND DEATH PROVIDES ETERNAL REST

I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT

CALLING ME

SOMTHING IS CALLING OUT TO ME

I CANT NAME IT FOR IVE NEVER SEEN IT. IT IS SOMTHING THAT IM MISSING. IT IS SOMETHING THAT I LACK. IT IS SOMETHING THAT I LONG TO FEEL,TO TOUCH, TO SEE. IT CALLS ME AN AT ANY MOMENT I MUST HEED THAT CALL. I SET OUT TO FIND THING THAT I KNOW NOTHING OF AT ALL.
I HAVENT FOUND IT YET BUT STILLTO ME IT CALLS.
IM WATING AND IM HOPING THAT IT WILL ONE DAY FIND ME.
FOR IT LEAVES MY THOUGHT AS CHOPPY AND SCATERED AS THE WAVES OF THE SEA.

in a dream

I SEE IT IN A DREAM
MY HOPES
AND YET MY FEARS
IN MY DREAMS
I HOPE
U NEVER LET GO
IN MY DREAMS
I FEAR
YOU ALWAYS DO
I LISTEN OUT
AND
REACH FOR YOU
FOR YOU
YOU ARE
ALL I KNOW
AND YET
YOU ALWAYS
LET ME GO
I LOOK OUT
AND
SEE YOU
WAY TO FAR AHEAD
I SHOUT OUT FOR YOU
TO COME
AND
YOU ALWAYS DO
YET YOU LEAVE AGAIN
BECAUSE FOR NOW MY MOM IS SHAKING ME
AWAKE
MY DREAM IS OVER
AND NOW I MUST
BRACE THE
DAY
BUT YOU ALWAYS COME BACK TO ME
THE SAME WAY
U ALWAYS LET ME GO
I DREAM OF THIS EVERY NIGHT
AND THAT IS HOW I NO

FOR LIFE

FOREVER AND EVER FOR LIFE
DOWN THOURGH THE PAIN AND THE STRIFE
ILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU
THAT SILENT THING YOU LEAN ON
WHICH SEES YOU THROUGH
THROUGH THE DARKNESS AND THE PAIN
THROUGH THE SUNSHINE AND THE RAIN
ULL NEVER NOTICE
ULL NEVER CARE BUT SILENTLY
ILL RESIDE THERE
THAT ONE TRU FREN THAT U FORGOT
ILL BE DOWN JUSS LIKE I SAYED
ILL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE
BUT WHEN I CAN NOLONGER HOLD YOU
WHEN I MUST DROP YOU LOAD THEN
YOU WILL REALIZE WHO IT WAS THAT HELD YOU ALL ALONG


FOR EVER AND EVER FOR LIFE

CHASING YOU

IVE BEEN RUNNING FROM THINGS FOR SO LONG
UNTIL YOU CAUGHT ME
I HAD TO STOP
BUT THEN YOU LET ME GO
NOW IT WAS I THAT CHASED YOU
IT SEEMED YOU RAN VERY FAR
VERY FAST
I COULDNT CATCH YOU
THOUGH I TRYED
U SLOWED AT TIMES
TO THE POINT OF WERE WE ARE SIDE BY SIDE
I'D THINK YOU ARE MINE
U LIED
AND JUSS WHEN I THOUGHT YOU WERE CAUGHT
THEN YOU SPEED UP ONCE AGIAN
AND THE CHASE CONTINUED
BUT SOME MONTHS INTO THIS ELABORATE CHASE
I ASKED MYSELF WHY
WAT CAUSED THIS CHASE OF YOU
AND WHY DO I CHASE YOU SO
I REALIZE THAT YOU LIKE IT
AND AT THAT THOUGHT I SLOW
YOU RUN OUT OF SIGHT
TOO FAR AHEAD OF ME
I JUSS LET YOU RUN
I TURN AND I GO HOME

IN YOUR EYES

I LOOK IN YOUR EYES
AND I SEE THE THINGS THAT YOU LET NO OTHER SEE
I LOOK IN YOUR EYES
I SEE THE SOUL OF SOMEONE WHO HAS CHANGED
I LOOK IN YOUR EYES
I SEE THE TEARS THAT ONLY A GROWN MAN CAN CRY
I SEE IN YOUR EYES
A WORLD OF CHANGE
AND A PERSON WHO IS NO LONGER
THE SAME
ALTHOUGH THE WORLD MAY SEE YOU AS
A HARDENED THUG
I SEE WAT U REALLY ARE
AND WHO YOU REALLY WANT TO BE
AND IF YOUR EVER FEELING THAT
YOUR NOT RECOGINZED FOR WAT U ARE NOW'
BUT FOR WAT U WERE THEN KNOW THAT I SEE
I SEE IT ALL
EVEN THE THINGS U TRY TO HIDE
I SEE IT
I KNOW ITS THERE

WATCHING

I AM WATCHING HIM
YET
HE IS WATCH HER
THE SAME WAY I GAZE AT HIM
HE NOW WATCHES HER
YET
STILL I WATCH
HIS EYES OBLIVIOUS TO ALL BUT HER
YET
STILL I WATCH
HER GRACEFUL MOTIONS
FULL OF AFFECTION FOR HIM
YET
STILL I WATCH
HIS EYES NO LONGER SEARCH FOR ME
FOR I NO LONGER HOLD HIS INTEREST
YET
STILL I WATCH
MY THOUGHTS OF HER IN ALL HER PORCELAIN BEAUTY
ARE LIKE DEMON WINGS
FLAPPING AND OUTSPREAD IN ALL THEIR UNSPEAKABLE EVIL
YET
STILL I WATCH
YET AGAIN AT THE THOUGHT
OF HIS HAPPINESS AS I WATCH HIM
WATCHING HER
I SHED THAT EVIL
AND I DON ANGEL WINGS
OF A VIBRANT WHITE

I

WHAT IS LOVE

WHAT IS LOVE?
THAT IS A TIMELESS QUESTION IN ITSELF
IF YOU ASK ME I'D SAY ITS A BEAUTIFUL ILLIUSION
THERE ONE MINUTE AND GONE THE NEXT
THE WAY IT VARIES IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS
THE WAY ONE CAN LOVE SOMEBODY WITHOUT REALLY BEING IN LOVE
THE LOVE A MOTHER HAS FOR A CHILD
THE LOVE GOD HAS FOR THE HUMANS HE CREATED
THE WAY A SCULPTER CARESSES THE THING IN WHICH HE CRAFTS
AND THE WAY IT LEAVES AS QUICKLY AS IT EMBRACES YOU
SO WHAT IS LOVE
TO ME LOVE IS A WONDERFUL WASTE OF TIME
THAT YOU WILL NEVER GET BACK
AWE INSPIRING IN THE FEELINGS IT CREATES
THE WAY IT MAKES YOU BLIND TO THE TRUTH
BLIND TO WHATS REALLY THERE
CREATING A VOID WHEN GONE
THAT CANT SEEMED TO BE FILLED BY ANYTHING ELSE
HOW PEOPLE THAT YOU ONCE BLAH,BLAH BLAHED TO
BECOME NONEXISTENT SHADOWS OF A PAST
YOU SOMETIMES WISH NEVER EXISTED
YET THOSE SAME PEOPLE CREATE A RUCH OF EMOTION
SO STRONG THAT YOU SMILE FOR THE GOOD TIMES
SO I TO ASK THAT TIMELESS QUESTION

WHAT IS LOVE

at school

im at school right now and im so bored i could juss die so this is and sos somone save me plz